wake

me

up

when

september

ends.

I.N.S.O.M.N.I.A

is not funny.

... ...

what the fuck is happening to me?

i seriously needa tune myself back to normal.

ok.

maybe.

i

just

needa

stop

thinking.

whooot!

i.am.heading.home.in.

87.hours.

"...you know that person is special when you never wish to hide her or hide things from her.

And on the contrary, you wana show her to the world, show the world to her."

One of the most meaningful words ive heard in a long time,

coming fr a rather eligible someone who proudly proclaims he's

"happy attached, albeit some serious problems."

I paused to think after reading those 2 sentences

over and over again.

Wouldnt it be the world to you if your special

someone feels the same about you?

Never having thoughts bout keeping things from you.

Never wanting to hide you from his friends.

Never lying bout being attached esp. when introduced

to someone new.(we all know how boys r like)

Never having second thoughts bout bringing u out.

Never embarassed to say you're his special someone.

Never afraid to show you off to his friends/family.

How many of them boys out there would tell

their gfs that he wants to show her to the world,

and in turn, show the world to her?

so, i finally got outta the house today!

Because my visa is expired this sunday and there's absolutely no way i can get across to HK lookin like that, so i decided that i would:
1) go back to the hospital to get a doc's report
2) take a 1 1/2hr drive to the Immigration Departm. in the city to request for an extended stay
Being the typical kiasi singaporean girl i am, i grabbed my huge sunhat+sunnies and headed out.
(aye i was warned time and again to stay home and OUT OF THE SUN!!)
i was damn scared the sun would darken my pox and leave me with scars la!
Gahhhhh!
And also, being Miss Considerate, i told bro to get me mask so i dont spread evil pox to others!

ok, that aside.

Managed to get a report fr the doc so we headed to the city.

When we got to the immigration place, no one seemed friendly enough to help. Worst thing was, they refused to extend my stay!

One female officer even said in mandarin "chickenpox is no big deal! Not even a contagious disease!(i so wanted to sneeze into her face when she said that!) Anyway EVERYBODY here is vaccinated against that so dont have to worry, surely u can just go(leave China that is)"

im like "WTF?!" (yes of course i did the 360deg. eye-roll thing!)

i mean, look...

1)of course i know chickenpox is no biggy! i never said it was dua kee to get CP!

2)chickenpox IS contagious u stupid biatch. fuckin get ur facts right!

3)im SO sure not everybody is vaccinated coz i know of pple who dont even know what CP is!

I was angry coz she made me look an ignorant over-reacting bitch. I was worried bout spreading this evil epidemic to others(who may not even heard of CP, let alone be vaccinated against it!), then comes this fat(i dont mean it but she is) woman tellin me not to worry at all since the whole of The People's Republic of China is vaccinated against it!(or so she claims)

WHAT A JOKE!

i dont even dare say the whole of tiny Singapore is vaccinated against the Varicella Disease!

urgh! how many times must i say these pple never fail to amuse me?

Anyhow, i didnt get to extend my stay in the end, and visa expires sunday.

Great. So what now?

I have thus decided to be the most selfish bitch and not worry bout infecting others.

(since it seems i have been too overly concerned and too overly considerate)

damn but im half-minded bout this coz honestly, i really dont wana be the person spreading this epidemic.

I told bro maybe we should get across to macao damn late at night(hopefully not so crowded when its late?) then come back in quickly.

ok, now im worried the custom officers detain me taking me for some serious skin disease carrier.

Fuck, this time im screwed.

Illegal immigrant or possible epidemic starter.

I get to choose one of the above.

its Go Green day again!

-.-'''

Cabbage congeeeeeeeeee...

so that was for luncho earlier on,

i wonder whats for dinner later.

grrrr..

maybe i shldnt be wondering at all.

im so sick & tired of congee i swear its drivin me mad.

i used to love eating congee so much i told

myself i could never get bored of it.

Esp. the teochew porridge and dishes to go along?

*salivating*

Throw in a salted egg and im settled!

whooo...now i miss that!

See! i have a great love for porridge!

BUT thats another story altogether.

salted eggs.soy sauce chicken.potato.curry.

black bean fish.eggs with onions...etc

urgh!!!

sigh...

my only consolation?

*mega-watt smile*

Bro rocks my socks la!

A stock-up of my new found love

Meiji Green Tea ice cream!

(wtf GREEN again?!)

urm, the ice cream balls aint mine..

Cant take choco now anyways and

surprisingly im not craving much for it.

Maybe i needa get my staples right first eh.

i was so darn hungry thru the day,

the attempt to sleep on it failed badly.

With digestives biscuits and ice cream,

i made myself this...

hokay...

Digestives still taste better dipped in milo.

=D

YAY!!

for once im up and not sleeping at this hour! =)

(well, all thanks to the virus ive been snoozing/fallin into

semi-comas every minute of the day since last saturday)

so here's a quick post before my energy evaporates.

read somewhere that im supposed to

'keep myself cool' so this green tea ice cream

is perfect, no? =)

and today the "porridge diet" was finally put to a Stop.

ok wait, no..i had porridge for bfast n lunch... ...

dinner was noodles soup with pork and LOTS of cabbage.

Its healthy so im not (supposed to be)complaining.

ive been put on a porridge diet its not funny anymore.

i can still rem clearly i had fish congee on sat n sun,

and then after that its pork congee and more pork congee.

And the fact that im not too much of a pig-person just

makes everything worse.

Then on tues night i got so put off by meat that

i resorted to a "full green" porridge.

All i asked for was cabbage n more cabbage in my congee.

so it ended up with loads of greens amidst the white gruel..

surprisingly it turned out pretty good.(no im not kidding)

i miss my chix la damnit.

Honestly,it should have been 'pigpox' instead,

then it wouldnt bother me THIS much really.

sigh

my face is so badly pox'itated i cant help but think im so
gona be badly scarred, even though i dont scratch 'em.
im going crazy just thinkin bout how the scars would look.

how do i even differentiate a full blown acne n a pox anyway?

ok, im not scratching,

so pls dont leave scars.

On a not-so-itchy note,

celamine lotion comes in handy coz

the ones on my back r starting to irritate a lil'

Does that mean they're gona start drying up?

let's pray i get over this real soon.

im thankful this epidemic

only hits a normal being once in a lifetime.

After this i'd be immune!(hopefully)

my first solid food in 4 days.

i lost 2kgs already.

i want my milo so i can dip the digestives into it.

maybe ovaltine would do just fine.

but they're brown and i have to avoid all things black/brown.

i miss my ah ma.

i want her here with me.

she has the healing hands to take away all my pain.

im so infested with pox,

disgusting is an understatement.

why do chickenpox even exist?

its a torture to mankind and im sure we'll all

be happier beings if it didnt exist.

im hungry.

i seriously need proper food.

i dreamt of having a feast earlier on.

i swear im gona stuff my face silly once this is over.

and when is this gona be over again?

sigh.

so,i've caught the evil...

Chickenpox.

... ...

and now i conclude, the top 5 worst places to have the pox on are:

(Note: rated according to seriousness, 1 being the most unbearable)

1) anywhere near the eyes (i have 1,smacked right on the under lid of my right eye.i swear its fuckin annoying(read:PAINFUL!!!))

2) in the mouth (under my tongue where the web is. i dont even know if its an ulcer in disguise)

3) in the nostril (actually it doesnt bother me that much as long as i dont have to clear my nose but since i have a slight flu, its a pain)

4) on my head/scalp (feels like some erupting acne i hate it)

5) on my face (i think im gona be so badly disfigured i swear)

i even trimmed all my nails just so i dont scratch them by accident.

sigh...

when is this gona be over? i feel horrible. i wana cry.

=(

+66 Day I & II

whoot!!!
kate & irene in BKK!
=D

3 more days...

meet the joker from skype

amydts9 says: Are you Tian ,from Jingzhou,Hubei,China
Irene Ong says: nope
amydts9 says: i guessed you are a classmate of mine
Irene Ong says: now u know im not
(i was already trying to be really nice not to use the all-time-fav. - FUCK OFF)
amydts9 says: never mind
amydts9 says: so what does the locatin" singapore china"mean?
(really pushing its {sorry but i dont even know what gender this person is} luck huh?)
Irene Ong says: is that important at all?
amydts9 says: it is that location and some other details made me think of you are my classmate
amydts9 says: my classmate went to singapore when she didn't finish her high school, i lose contact with her
Irene Ong says: hello? do u understand english? i already said im NOT from Jingzhou Hubei China whatever. so quit asking. coz its pretty obvious im not the classmate u're looking for.
Irene Ong says: now, BYE.
amydts9 says: sorry,but you are so impatient,however
amydts9 says: it's my fault to add you
amydts9 says: bye
Irene Ong says: yea i am.VERY impatient with pple who just dont get it.
amydts9 says: really?maybe in your eyes ,only you are smart,others are fool
(excuse me but i only asked if u understood english. Nothing bout u being a fool, ok?)
Irene Ong says: well if thats what u tink and u do think/know u're The Fool, so be it.
(but if u wana act like one, then be my guest)
amydts9 says: 你以为就你英文好
(u girls shld have seen how i rolled my eyes all the way to the back of my head the 360deg. way! so hard they almost poped out!)
amydts9 says: 我只不过不小心冒犯了你而已
amydts9 says: 有必要这样吗
amydts9 says: 自以为是的人往往什么都不是
amydts9 says: 我已经给你道歉了，还想怎么样
(note: it really had to express its pain in a more familiar language. So that gave me a chance to flaunt my mothertongue too! Just so it knows, english aint the only language i speak, WELL. haha)
Irene Ong says: no time to entertain fools. under the block list you go. anyway 我不这样以为。 你得english也很好啊。只是笨了那么一点点。就这样。




so... ...under the Block List this amydts9 goes! =)
Was an entertainment anyhow.
its been a long while since i unleashed the Bitch in me.
ahh.. Now i feel good.

i've been too tired to do anything, really.

and right now i have this killer head/neck/back-ache thats drivin me up the wall.

let's just hope there's no OT tonight so i can go for a good massage to ease that friggin nerve,

and then hopefully a nice mani/pedi session after.

Will be back blogging when i have the mood.

Love ya'll.

update

ok i take back my words from the previous post.
We just had another talk.
He's still very much the same old bro who wants the best for me, and im really glad for that.
Thank you and Im sorry.
i've been a bitch.
i wish i was more mature and appreciative. Really.

I could never figure why (my)life tends to work in an absurdly cruel way. All the time.
There must be a secret Someone out there who takes pleasure in putting me thru rollercoaster rides.
The saddest truth i have to come to terms with right now, is that the one person whom i've looked up to for the past 2 decades, has suddenly become nothing short of a stranger.
The disappointment is just overwhelming and im tryin hard to swallow it.
I've been putting myself in your small and uncomfortable shoes.
Just when i thought you'd know how much this opportunity means to me and how badly im wanting it, you prove me wrong.
All that talk bout pursuing ur dream and what-nots, is all nothing but cheaptalk & bullshit.
Coz at the end it all, the one who decides if ur dream should come true isnt You or Me.
So who makes the final call then?
Heck. Maybe i should just shuddup and stop questioning about Life.

when the truth hurts, only a lie can be beautiful

on cloud nine

Never been that anxious checkin the mailbox.

Never felt this happy from getting an email.

In fact, i've havent felt such euphoria for the

longggggggesssssst time.

Honestly, maybe the feeling of havin butterflies

in my tummy doesnt feel that bad afterall.

heh.

Im keeping my fingers crossed.

The brudder needs to know bout this, say...,

sometime... ...tomorrow. . .?

Right.

Wish me luck people.

and i need shitloads of it.

Grrrr.

im done for the day.

Good night.

yay!!!

The Bf agreed to send in an application!

although i know we may not get it,

but im still very happy we took the first baby step.

i.am.SO.excited!!!

heh.

we're THIS bit closer now.

i cant wait.

=)

ed is on.

Whoooohoooo!!!

look what i got my hands on... ...!

*drumroll*

Taadaaa!!

my first LEGAL copy of juicy Ed! heh.

what can i say?

HK's entertainmentbiz is one helluva happening!
i mean, mags like these beat the ones we have back

at home!...hands down.

But it took me quite awhile to actually understand

the articles because everything's HK-style!

by that i meant all the reports were written in

cantonese-chinese. they literally do direct trans.

of how they'd speak in cantonese with all the weird

words i could never figure out.

So yea, to save myself from all the headache,

i just kept lookin out for main points and visuals. ha!

Anyway the contents in this issue seems rather extreme.

First u get the sex pics saga and then u read on bout the

sad news on Lydia Sum.

Tryin to stir us into some emotions-confusion here huh.

ok ok, that aside.

i just needa say,

everyone shld just STOP pushing all the blame to him.

this takes 2 willing parties and its fuckin obvious

that the girls acknowledged the presence of a camera.

so quit callin him the bad guy and puttin all ya pity on

the girls. They had their share of fun and now its only

time that they bear the consequences.

I bet they never thought this would happen when

they were in the most pleasurable time of their lives.

ok but if i really should feel bad for anyone, it would

be CC. i mean, her somewhat complete life has just began

and now it seems that everything's come crashing down.

anyhow IMO she's definitely the hottest so far .

Looks and body.

Period.

Digressing...

just so i remember,

Itamae Sushi is goodie!

Feb's the month of love...

...and loads of money-spendin'!!!

... ....

Hokay that aside first.

Look what boy got for me for Vday!

... ...

A polaroid!!!

whoooooooot!

SO LOVE!!!

actually it wasnt exactly a

he-bought-it-for-me-for-vdae thing.

well i sort of told him i wanted it so i went to

buy it myself..., but with his money of course! heh.

so that makes a vdae gift for me, no? =)

anywayssss...this went into my shopping list

at the very last min (and i mean, VERY LAST

coz it was just the day before my flight back) and

my sweetest muffin spent the whole damn day

with me in town tryin to hunt down the one that

costs 89buckeroos instead of 149.

ok long story here so... never mind.

im glad we found it in the end.

hmm, and i think i want a cute lomo next.

=)

My trusty served

me well for a good 1yr1mth14days before

i decided that its bout time for something new!

Being the usual el'cheapo i am, made used of

some 150bucks vouchers and got this

oh-so-viewteefoo Viewty.

was a pretty tough decision coz im honestly

not an LG-fan at all but the entire outlook

and touchscreen thingy won me over.

oh and how could i even forget bout the

5mp camera jampacked into this sleek toy?!

heh.

I mentioned there's a gadget-slut in me didnt i?

anyhow im keeping my fingers crossed coz the last

thing i want now is for the touchscreen to die on me.

*choichoi touchwood*

but yea, technologies are just too unpredictable.

To-date its proven itself somewhat reliable and

i hope it stays this sane.

one down thing is that its a serious fingerprint-magnet

and i swear its so bad that it drives me crazy!

Fusspot at her finest again but aye, who can actually

tahan having fingerprints all over her phone huh?!

Not me for sure!

Retail therapy.

We all share a love-hate relationship with that dont we?

but i guess for me its just a lil' more love over hate.

BAGS... BAGS... and MORE BAGSsssssssssss!!!

AGAIN

sigh.

Promises are meant to be broken.

all i can say is, im a bad promise keeper.

But, at least i tried??

Last on the list today...

finally found the same pair of open toes i used to have!

its kinda half a size bigger but i HAD to buy it

coz ive been lookin for it for the longest time.

The previous pair just decided to give way la.

LOVE the suede heels!

okieeeeeeee...kinda long post eh?

ha. for the lack of updates.

and yay!

one more day to HKland!

dohz....

more money-spendin'...

*sheepish*

alright im off to bed

and...

i've only been back for less than a week

but i miss Home already.

tooohooohooo

2 days from sunshine!

cannot be any happier than this.

Cold is an understatement

i swear the winter chill is a pain in my butt.

the freezing cold's hindering me from my normal life,

which for one includes blogging.

i have difficulties moving my fingers.

i cant tap away on my keyboard as freely as my usual.

the hot air comin out from the side of my lappie

doesnt even feel warm at all.

i stay under the shower till my skin gets all pale & wrinkled.

i refuse to answer nature's call coz each time i do,

i risk getting an assfreeze.

its funny how some parts of my body doesnt feel

like part of me any longer.

ok i think im starting to blabber.

i think i'm this close to losing my ability to think.

i think every move i take, im 3 seconds slow.

i think every thought that goes thru my mind takes

a much longer time to be generated/processed.

i think im becoming a retard.

ok sorry i think i've over exaggerated.

anyhow,

the good news is...

home i go come sunday!

the bad news is...

temperature falls to 5deg.c tomorrow.

i have to brave 3 more wintry days.

great.

the missing blogobug

hello

... ...

dang.

i cant seem to think of anything substantial to blog bout.

i mean,

not that all(any of) my posts have always been of any substance.

Sigh. i think i'm envious of pple who can write well.

i just cant seem to locate the blogobug.

Ah! screw that for now.

The camwhore livin in me... ...

She's acting up,

again.

♥

♥ make love! make peace! ♥

heh. how tacky is that?

hokay... ...

its getting late and its friggin cold.

so cold im not very much enjoyin it at all.

the darn portable heater doesnt seem to be servin me well.

wish we had central heaters in the apartment damnit.

sigh.

Maybe i shld just go to sleep,

hide under the quilt and try to keep myself warm.

Nights for now.