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不懂的爱自己, 就不要期望别人爱你.
不了解自己, 就不要期望别人了解你.
不知道自己到底要的是什么, 就不要期望别人可以给你什么.

simplicity

6am jog.

3pm swim(soak).

4pm sauna.

6pm home.

4hrs reruns of all-time-fav KimSamSoon.

if only everyday is like today... ...

update: aching from head to toe. im a loser.

sinkin' into the big D

why isnt this over?

im drained.

wake me up when september ends?

good night

system disorder

My phone suffered 2 hard falls in 3 days. I dropped it on the road the 1st time, and it was sucha bad fall the battery and back case literally flew off. Then i dropped it again just awhile ago when i went down to collect some goods from a supplier. Whats up with me and butter fingers huh?! Its so badly disfigured now i swear its a goner! Urgh!!! Lookin at it makes my heart ache so bad. This is drivin me crazy. Im starting to hate myself. i feel like crying i dont know why. i've got a fuggin headache since yesterday. Paracetemol isnt taking any effect on me anymore. Sleeping doesnt seem to be of any help either. i slept for 14hrs straight but the more i sleep, the more my head seems to be spinning. My tummy feels queasy after eating. I swear im not anorexic. i feel hot and cold. im in a terribly cranky mood. i dont feel like doin anything or talkin to anyone. i wana go home and stay in bed all day. i cant think. im starting to stone. i think i need anti-depressant. but what am i feeling depressed over? Something is fucking wrong with me.

iSurvive

yea i survived! ...

365 days in this forbidden town.

Freaky how time flies right?

Last year today, it was pouring cats and dogs

the moment i touched down.

Honestly not very optimistic with that sorta weather...

like i wasnt feeling emo enough already huh?

Till now, that funny smell of rain is still very freshly streaming

thru my head, and i will never forget that painful drive from the

ferry terminal, with a heavy heart and overwhelming mixed emotions.

12092006~17:39

looking out of the window, nothing seems familiar at all.

"oh fuck. This time its for real..."

That sense of uncertainty and insecurity started to kick in...

*~*
18092006~ Trip to Guangzhou

Blood and Kate just started dating then,

and guess what? they very happily left for Japan today!

Honeymoon i suppose?

how sweet... ...

*~*

12092007

Woke up to a beautiful morning.

Got to work as usual, planted my ass infront of my lappie

and started clicking away, emptying the mailbox.

Minutes before 10, everything went off.

Yes, the lovely people decided to stop the power supply, again.

Very very fortunately, we were given the later day off.

Flora and i decided to check out this salon,

supposedly Korean and said to be the best in Zhongshan.

And to reward myself for my 365 days of urm, endurance...

i gave myself a treat... ...

to a new hair color.

*mega watt smile*

Black, is the new black!

haha. not exactly.

but yea, i FINALLY got myself a jet black with curls!

i've been lusting for that look for the longest time!

dont even get me started on what happened the last time

i dyed my hair black, then curled it after. Bahhhh!

Anyhow, that Korean salon... is owned by a korean couple.

i know, Duh! Just to get my point across...

They're very authentic full blooded koreans, not the ones

from the very north side of China who speaks korean, ok?

(shuddup. im not discriminating anyone here)

For that K'ish feel, i paid a whopping SGD120 for black hair!

*sheepish*

but im tryin to make myself feel better by thinking of

those shampoo, conditioner, leave-in and dye,

all IMPORTED DIRECTLY FROM KOREA!

and of course! not forgetting the korean songs on repeat mode

and posters of korean stars all over the place?

(i know u like! we so dig loh!)

wahahaha!

Fine, call me a bimbo.

whatever~ i dont care.

alright now,

will someone give me a pat on my back please?