a little late but still,

Happy 2007 peeps!

better to be late than never right?

*winks*

So whats 2007 gona be like

and how was 2006 like for u?

for me,

~2006~

* 22, but feel as though im livin a life of a 42's

* been a workin young adult for 4yrs

* admitted to A&E for the 1st time in my life

(and seriously thought i was gona die)

* quit my monotonous 4yr sales job

* relocated to China in Sept

* not forgetting, put on close to 5kg

(im feelin suicidal once again!)

~2007~

* adapting to a whole new lifestyle

* shed that extra pounds

(no improvement up-to-date)

* lead a healthy lifestyle

(less junk food, more exercise)

* earn more $, spend less, save more

(right... ...)

and im 23 this yr!

goodness me!

time flies and its so damn

freakin me out.

feels like yesterday that i was 15,

the good ol' sec sch days.

How i dread goin to school,

dragged myself outa bed at 6am,

played truant,

squabbled with the teachers,

copied homework(damn good at that),

fallin asleep in class,

fake IDs to get into clubs,

sneakin out in the middle of the night

... ...

i kinda miss those days.

minus the school work stress and

school rules shit.

im sure many of us hated school

cept' for the friends and fun.

there was a period of time i dreamt

of school days almost every night.

Woke up feelin funny in my heart,

wishing i could turn back time.

Those days were carefree,

and we dont hafta giv no half fucks bout anything.

I miss takin the public bus to sch with Shirlene,

miss fallin in for assembly

miss standing behind the Q with all the tall ones

and forming a 'deep wave'

miss singing the national anthem(er, just a lil)

miss gettin caught for my oh-so-mini uniform

miss agitating the guts outa the teachers

miss writing letters during class

miss all the puppy-love-crush shit

miss lifting up people's pinafore

miss(not) gettin mine lifted,

miss cheer-leading,

miss OMS (opp ma-ma shop) *lol*

and many many many more.

(i could just go on and on but i figured i'd

sound like a broken down tape recorder)

it came to a point i realised

Time really doesnt wait for anyone.

it could be over just like that,

all u can do is think back and regret

doing this and not doing that.

when i was 15, all i wanted to do was

to grow up fast

so i can hav all the freedom in the world,

and no stupid school rules to follow.

Then when i was 18 and stepped into

the working society,

i finally know how it feels to be a

working adult, and how ugly the real world is.

Having all the freedom in the world isnt that great.

School rules aint that stupid afterall.

It seems that in order to survive in the society,

you hafta be on ur guard at all times,

constantly lookin out for ur back.

PR skill then becomes very impt,

and puttin on a fake smile seems like an everyday thing.

And u realise, there's no such thing as a true friend.

They can be talkin and laughin with you,

but underneath that smile lies an evil monster.

You go home with wounds on ur back,

not knowing who the culprit is.

See, thats the problem with growing up

people lose their naiveness as they get older.

Alot has changed since i started working.

During sch days, i never had a problem

mingling with people and acting stupid.

I dont care if u think im a dork,

because I know im young and

being young is my excuse for being ignorant.

But now, i fear making mistakes coz

i dont wana be labelled a nitwit.

Simply because im 23 and there's no

excuse for me to be an airhead anymore.

Its tiring but motivating at the same time.

i dont know, but growing up to me is

THIS painful and contradicting.

i no longer do well with strangers

and i start to think bad of everyone.

like one of my friends said

"think bad of everyone,

then if they're good, it becomes a bonus""

i totally agree with that.

because i've been thru shit,

i'm not able to think good of pple anymore

as much as i really want to.

i hav this feelin that pple(some) ard me are

all comin up with a conspiracy to ruin me.

ha.

ok, maybe thats just me.

tell me if u think im mad.

so u see, in order to protect myself,

i chose not to make anymore friends.

dohz.

i mean, friends, not acquaintance.

i dont mind the Hi-Bye kind

(if thats really necessary)

but nothing more than that.

i dont see the need to keep 'friends'

who dont come true with me,

stab me in my back,

leave me feelin hurt and all the crap.

Life is already not easy,

so i dont need these pple to

complicate it any further.

Im happy with what i have now.

Just a couple (erm, maybe 4 to be exact?)

whom i feel totally comfortable with.

So yea, im contented and all's good.

Oh well,

being 23 this year

i tink i have hell lotsa things in my mind,

and helluvalot more things i wana achieve.

seems like an SOP to come up with a

"New Year Resolution" thingy isnt it?

ha.

coming up with a list isnt too difficult,

workin hard at it and achieving is the tough part.

See, i have 2 years to settle down with a man

and make babies ok!

(alrite, i can hear u girls callin me Siao already)

its not my fault that im sucha true Cancerian

and my motherly instinct is overwhelming ok!

but i really really wana get married at 25,

make 2 babies(before 30) and be a housewife(Tai Tai)!

(by this time,u girls shld tink that im really crazi)

i know, i know...!

ok, only Kate feels the same way as i do.

(we're both Cancerians btw)

the rest of my friends are like,

super duper career-minded la.

ok, my kids are gona hav loaded

godmothers in future!

*lol*

wow.

is this a long post

or is this a long post?

im supposed to be working!!!

tsk tsk.

back to work now!

ops, its 1805.

time to knock off!

heh.

bye bye bumbums.

i love ya'll

smoochies.