system disorder

My phone suffered 2 hard falls in 3 days. I dropped it on the road the 1st time, and it was sucha bad fall the battery and back case literally flew off. Then i dropped it again just awhile ago when i went down to collect some goods from a supplier. Whats up with me and butter fingers huh?! Its so badly disfigured now i swear its a goner! Urgh!!! Lookin at it makes my heart ache so bad. This is drivin me crazy. Im starting to hate myself. i feel like crying i dont know why. i've got a fuggin headache since yesterday. Paracetemol isnt taking any effect on me anymore. Sleeping doesnt seem to be of any help either. i slept for 14hrs straight but the more i sleep, the more my head seems to be spinning. My tummy feels queasy after eating. I swear im not anorexic. i feel hot and cold. im in a terribly cranky mood. i dont feel like doin anything or talkin to anyone. i wana go home and stay in bed all day. i cant think. im starting to stone. i think i need anti-depressant. but what am i feeling depressed over? Something is fucking wrong with me.

iSurvive

yea i survived! ...

365 days in this forbidden town.

Freaky how time flies right?

Last year today, it was pouring cats and dogs

the moment i touched down.

Honestly not very optimistic with that sorta weather...

like i wasnt feeling emo enough already huh?

Till now, that funny smell of rain is still very freshly streaming

thru my head, and i will never forget that painful drive from the

ferry terminal, with a heavy heart and overwhelming mixed emotions.

12092006~17:39

looking out of the window, nothing seems familiar at all.

"oh fuck. This time its for real..."

That sense of uncertainty and insecurity started to kick in...

*~*
18092006~ Trip to Guangzhou

Blood and Kate just started dating then,

and guess what? they very happily left for Japan today!

Honeymoon i suppose?

how sweet... ...

*~*

12092007

Woke up to a beautiful morning.

Got to work as usual, planted my ass infront of my lappie

and started clicking away, emptying the mailbox.

Minutes before 10, everything went off.

Yes, the lovely people decided to stop the power supply, again.

Very very fortunately, we were given the later day off.

Flora and i decided to check out this salon,

supposedly Korean and said to be the best in Zhongshan.

And to reward myself for my 365 days of urm, endurance...

i gave myself a treat... ...

to a new hair color.

*mega watt smile*

Black, is the new black!

haha. not exactly.

but yea, i FINALLY got myself a jet black with curls!

i've been lusting for that look for the longest time!

dont even get me started on what happened the last time

i dyed my hair black, then curled it after. Bahhhh!

Anyhow, that Korean salon... is owned by a korean couple.

i know, Duh! Just to get my point across...

They're very authentic full blooded koreans, not the ones

from the very north side of China who speaks korean, ok?

(shuddup. im not discriminating anyone here)

For that K'ish feel, i paid a whopping SGD120 for black hair!

*sheepish*

but im tryin to make myself feel better by thinking of

those shampoo, conditioner, leave-in and dye,

all IMPORTED DIRECTLY FROM KOREA!

and of course! not forgetting the korean songs on repeat mode

and posters of korean stars all over the place?

(i know u like! we so dig loh!)

wahahaha!

Fine, call me a bimbo.

whatever~ i dont care.

alright now,

will someone give me a pat on my back please?

im so-in-lust

meet my latest crave..

SE P1i

hokay... ...

i dont have the slightest idea y i want a PDA for!

in other words, im just a hopeless gadget slut la huh.

but its such a stunning beauty dont ya think? and its

jam-packed with a 3.2mp cam! (ah now we know y...)

*classic bimbo smile*

... ...

now. . .my pretty 903 isnt even a year old!

and im honestly still lovin it to bits,

cept' for the occasional times the camera decides to

konk out on me, everything else works pretty fine.

But for some reason or another, it gives me a sense of insecurity.

like... it'll just die on me one morning, and no one's gona

be able to revive it!

yikes! i hate that!

... ...

get a grip on yourself irene ong!

senseless rambling

i think im goin thru a bout of depression lately

and everything gets worse when...

1) my oil glands are obviously overworking, again!

2) my hormones decided to screw up and basically,lead a life of its own

3) all the pimples in the world are having a time of their lives

playing Multiply(yea its a game but u wont wana know) on my face.

4) the KillerGastritis is back to haunt me! i cant eat well coz i get discomfort

after eating,so i dont even eat much but somehow im still very very bloated.

Feeling emo and all that shit, with my

mood terribly swinging out of control.

Swear this sucks.

im hoping its all the usual PMS thing,

which should be over in awhile.

To add on to my agony, bro is headed back Home

for a week this weekend, WITHOUT me.

Fanfuckintastic.

if my visa-renewal plan didnt flop so fuggin badly,

i'd be happily inhaling sg air right now.

To top it off- endless coffee-bitching-shopping sessions.

Yea,SHOPPING! talk bout shopping...

maybe all i need is retail therapy??

perhaps i needa spend some money to make myself feel better.

im so ashame to say that Shopping(or rather, spending money)

makes me a (very)happy girl, almost all the time.

But im fuggin broke la! friggin pauper.

i wana buy bag(s)!!!

oh fuck.im so superficial.

my level of happiness actually

depends on the number of bags i can buy.

Baaahhhhh..

now why cant money drop from the sky?!

why cant i have a money tree?!

ah...all i need is a money printing machine!

urgh.

this is driving me bonkers.

iamcrazy.

imissmygirlies.

imissyou.suyen ong!

i really really miss u.

can i get someone to pack u up in a package and

freight u over, right bout NOW?

i need u here to keep me sane.

p/s: i chanced upon dictionary.com's word-of-the-day earlier on and it happens to be Yen.

Other than being the monetary unit of japan(which we all know), it actually also means craving or strong desire!

haha. Pun intended?

Explicit contents

Not for the weak of hearts.

*~*

Warning: Avoid reading this post if you've just taken

or about to go for your meal

*~*

in the midst of..urm, answering Nature's call,

i spotted this... ...

Look carefully.

... ...

Wild-fuckin-Mushrooms,

growing right under the cubicle door!!

(i bet u all can feel ur goosebumps already)

i know its silly of me to even stop to take a pic,

but i really cant help it.

its just too much of a sight for me to just see, and forget.

swear this is the sickest thing i've even seen to date!

TOTALLY GRUESOME!

(i can feel my hair stand as i type and recollect)

how the fuck did the mushrooms get in the toilets?!

why is the environment even suitable for mushroom growth?!
oh yuck!

Someone please please please, enlighten me.

Whatever it is, I am so gona stop eating shrooms for awhile now.

Anything from the mushroom family, will be boycotted.

(read:that does not include myself. (haha?))

And i am NEVER EVER gona step into that cubicle, ever again.

i am overwhelmed by a sense of disgust.

fainting spells. . .
eeeeewwwwwwwwwww...

*shrugs*

*~*

Awhile ago, a casual foot reflex. session turned my back into this...

the process was.. ..painful but bearable.

A spoon was used to repeatedly rub down the back,

then it starts to turn red, or purple for some people.

Next came the heated bottle thing that sucks ur skin real tight.

Dont know exactly how to describe that feeling but

it was honestly, quite a high.(ok i sound like a sadist)

Taadaa! the entire process, results in a fugly back as shown.

Quite a turn-off isnt it? Bahhh...

The aftermath of this, isnt quite an enjoyment.

i can feel the pain as i stretch or lean against the chair now,

and im gona be decked in my tees

for the next couple of days till the sore goes away.

Muffin says they look like super huge mozzie bites,

but i cant imagine how big that mozzie would be.

... ...

Now take a pick, which is more traumatic?

The mushroom or my back?