the one person that wasnt supposed to fail u let u down.

the one person that was spposed to love u stopped lovin u.

the one person whom u thought is the closest to your heart wouldnt understand.

the one person that was supposed to care dont fuckin give a damn no more.

you cry.

cry like there's no tomorrow.

but so what?

no one cares whether u exist or not.

ur existance doesnt make any diff in anyone's life anyway.

all the tears u shed aint gona change anything

one day u're just gona leave this world,

and nobody's gona even remember u ever existed.

im standing at the edge.

lend me a hand.

just fuckin push me over.

Bring me back...

...to where i came from.

Somewhere i truly belong to.

where the skies are filled with fluffy cotton-white clouds,

where the smell of rain is love and not headache,

where sunshine gives warmth and not frustration,

where the grass is green and everything smells amazing,

where going home makes me feel at-home,

where the motherhood is there to nag(no im not saying i enjoy it),

where the killer instinct in me isnt triggered everyday,

where im back to civilisation and everyone is far less than stupid,

(i can seriously go on and on till the cows come home)

but most importantly,

i just wana go back to a place where i'm surrounded by

those who care and love.

i can honestly feel myself slowly disintegrating...

my mind, my heart, my soul, everything.

The constant self-reminder:

"what doesnt kill me makes me stronger".

Until one day someone told me,

"what doesnt kill you takes your soul away".

... ...

Right now i must say im totally going thru the latter.

B.E.W.A.R.E

here comes Part I of my million and one fortoesssss!!

*~*

271007- checking in.

Regal Hotel, Hongkong

~Our booth at the fair~

from nothing... ...

... ...to this!!


*~*

Day 1- 281007

my fav morning perk-me-ups

*~*

Day 2- 291007

dinner @ some random sushi bar in front of our hotel

i actually quite like the cup. haha

kate is picture-perfect almost all the time

i made maurice buy me an SG edition monopoly

...and so we played till 4am

*~*

Day 3- 301007

yes we have our 'uniform'

the men and the (not-so)shy sam

with Cristos, one of my sweetest client

*~*

Day 4- 311007

last day, so we finally get to dress-down!

meet Yun..the very chic mummy

we start to get a lil silly(as usual)

kate's bag is adorned with gold & floral, both my big loves.

you cant tell, but the thing that holds my hair is a huge 'diamond'.

haha.told ya im a bling whore?

kate's 'maomao' is very nice but she says its gettin smelly

*shrugs*

"Hola!"

our Spanish team, Sebastian & Alicia

from kate's Samsung NV10 (im lusting for 1 too!)

~The End~

ok...above is just the 'apetitzer'

heh.

will continue tomorrow or something.

the flu medicine is kickin in...

now i seriously needa crash.

Nights.

yes, im very much still alive, thankfully.

all the mad rush of quotations and what-nots
didnt kill me...it just almost took my soul away..

i think i seriously needa good break

when i'm completely done with all the whatevers.

... ...

past 20days or so has been the busiest period in the entire year.

Annual HK International Lighting Fair ended on 31st

and even after 2 whole weeks, there is still a whole stack

of quotations waiting for me to follow up on.

Then i concluded that there are pple out there who takes flooding

someone else's mailbox as a hobby(READ: pleasure). And i swear

these hobbyists are causing me to suffer from yet another phobia.

Im startin to get the jitters from clickin on that Outlook Express icon.

I can friggin sense its murderous aura lurking from under the screen.

Fuckin scary. They should have a name for such phobia.

Maybe its called Emailophobic?

ok. never mind.

... ...

anyhow, the motherhood was here for bout 2 weeks and

home she went yesterday.(yes i miss her already)

Life's pretty much back to normal for me now.

I needa clear that pile of shit ASAP and get ready to end the

year in the most perfect note(i hope).

Kate's heading back to TW some time next week and she

thinks it's a good time for me to take a short break with her.

I would honestly LOVE to if i could.

11 1/2 months passed w/o a holiday to anywhere.

All work and no play makes Irene an angry girl.

Gahhhhh...

hokay.. maybe i should just tuck myself into bed soon

so i can stop thinking of all the angry things.

Nights and sweet dreams,

with love and no anger please.

p/s: i have a million and one photos to share.

Here's just one of the many many.

The new Venetian in Macau.

too many things happening

too little time to think

the feeling of helplessness sucks

im sorry...

its seems like i only turn to the Big One above when shit happens

i hate the hospital

i hate the smell of that place

it makes my stomach queasy

right now i feel as though im gona disintegrate

and disappear into thin air

i am so fuckin tired

im starting to talk nonsense

i needa sleep WELL.

i cant fuckin catch my breath

lets just hope that everything would be fine soon

i'll be back when the sun starts to shine again

Good night.

please be strong.